ABDABS

 I dreaded the day you’ve come,

Bringing your bright smiles in a bun

Holding me like a long lost friend of yours

Your touch made my heart missed a beat or more.

I dreaded the day you’ve held me,

Like I was something yours to be

Why didn’t I think about it all from then on,

The sparks did not excite, it burned all along

I dreaded the day you’ve held my hand,

It felt like I was already yours, ready to brand

Somehow my blood felt alive when I’m with you

Trying, my soul dismissed what I felt for us two

I dreaded the day you kissed me back,

My soul took it hard and was blown from the attack

I held on a little bit in my mind for sanity

But I totally lost it, you were otherworldly.

You’ve made me yours, all yours

And I knew I could be this enamored

So when you asked me why I do love you,

A million things to say in my mind I knew

But my mouth won’t let me speak at all

I wasn’t ready to hear it from myself and fall

I don’t want to feel jealous when she holds you

But it’s something I don’t want you to know

I don’t want to feel pain when I know she kisses you at night

But it’s something I don’t have a right

I don’t want the torture of time, waiting 

But time was only what we have, our only something

I don’t want you going home at night,

But I cannot hold you forever in my sight.

So whenever she touches you, know that I am jealous

When she kisses you, know that I am envious

I’ve always said I was fine and all,

As whatever lifetimes, with you I’d want to fall

Fall beside you as we talked about life

Talk about whatever sexuality is and right

Argue on deep things as we bare our souls

Talk as if the world never existed at all

You draw me as if my soul walked lifetimes with you,

But I don’t know if I should push through

You asked me to leave, and walk away

And it crushed me a lot to say “Okay”

So watch me stay, impatient as I am

Watch me love you, from the scene behind

And whenever you cease to see motivation and drive,

Remember me, someone who holds you as my dear life.

CONFESSIONS

 Father forgive me for I have sinned,

I don’t know how or when it started to cave in

Carved inside my mind and within my soul,

This woman raised me just to fall

The woman I see so kind and meek,

The woman who smiles, making me freak. 

Uncertainty was bustling, words were flying

Admission to a commitment, she had me dying

But for me she was so good to be true 

I am drawn and I cared less, can you blame me though? 

Am I to blame, with all these raging feelings?

Am I to blame, for seeing and wanting?

Am I to blame, when she makes this fist-sized organ give erratic beats?

Am I to blame, for asking this to be real and not just a matter of feats?

Her aroma is suffocating and I begged to die

Her presence draws stares, she is in itself, FIRE

To walk like she owns the room, a Leo by right

And amongst the pack, I wanted my Lioness in sight. 

As she masters over me, a parallel chaotic fiend

So Father forgive me, for I have unregrettably sinned

ARDOUR

Tanned skin, sanpaku eyes, with a gloomy look and a cutting stare

With a silent smile, Mona Lisa’s mysteries would never dare

The walk of authority brewing with the air of elegance

Unwittingly lost on that womanly fragrance

With nothing I can do in my mind, just stare and burn,

Etched on my memories, her laughter and smile at every turn

And as I sit at the view where the sky meets the sea,

the shadow of the goddess darkens the light around me

Are you the light, pulling and calling me away from this empty void?

Or are you the fire, that burns my wings but leave me dead cold? 

So I care for naught as you blew life around me,

Only take them away, as you bid goodbye and walked away slowly.

You drew circles on the air with whispers of stories we never can tell,

As I get lost on the voice, the sexy mind and blooming feelings inside my shell

But I saw you move, I saw your eyes 

I saw the desire and the equal fire

So whisper to me sweet lady how I should dance with you,

In this waltz where I sold my soul for us two

Scar in me the initials of your name,

The same damn name burned in the back of my brain

Brand my body with every ideas you have,

As I willingly succumb to the dark and pain just for this kind of love

But think not that I am a slave of yours,

As a wolf is a gentleman with a nice guy’s clothes

To think that I am innocent is a mere error,

For you may be the Goddess of Lust and Desire 

but I am the Lord of Pleasure.